Friday, May 31, 2013

Losing Interest

When I started working as a programmer most days were good, some days were mediocre, and the rare day was bad. By the time I took the better part of a year off in 2009 it was rarely good, mostly mediocre and sometimes bad. The nature of the work hadn't changed but my interest in the core activity, writing code, dwindled to the point that on more days than not it was a chore. All it took to turn a normal day into a bad day would be one bug being re-opened, or one stupid css quirk. Starting a new job reset the balance, but the slide was faster each time. Now most days it takes an active feat of will to get into the frame of mind I need to be in to write code, and I'm just plain tired of working on software. I am tired of compilers, tired of failed builds, tired of cryptic bug reports, tired of unhelpful stack traces, tired of obstinate and obscure APIs,  and so damned tired of merge conflicts.

It's not as melodramatic as that makes it sound, though. I like writing code but I don't like it enough to do it forty hours a week any more, or to do it when I don't want to. I'm in a position where I don't have to, so I'm not going to.

So, being able to do so, I've quit my job. I am now going to waste my savings hanging around doing nothing (my true calling), then probably going overseas to visit friends, and hopefully figuring out something I do want to do full time. Until I lose interest in that after a few years, I guess.

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